I can't hardly breathe because I know I've lost you from my world
Shirl; You are still notttt online >:(
NatL; We need to talk soon yes NatL! :D
Nicole; We're from the same family, why would I hate them? Haha silly. (:
Alethia; Sure, no problem, welcome!
Puayleng; Haha keep a record or something!
Jovenelim; BestGirlFriend! :D I've decided to call us BestGirlFriends instead. BFs are too common. I love you jov. & you know it too. [:! Shopping, camwhoring && happy bitching time soon allright? Perhaps some time after my prelims since Shar & you have got no major exams to go for :(
Kasand; Hello sweets! :D I'll link you up reall soon allright! Meet up soon please! >:( frowns
Jasmine; Haha school's fine, thanks a lot. :D I hope everything's going good for you!
Akiko; You silly pok, stop _______ yourself okay! >:( I've come to a stop to all these so I think you should too. There's always a resolution to everything yeh? I'll always be here if you ever need someone. [:

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&&, I'm sure this time I'm not taking you back. So farewell & I love you.

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Ahh, short day indeed (: It's only 255 in the afternoon now && I'm here lazing around, refused to study for my chinese text tmr. Okay it's not that I do not want to but my Chinese textbook is in school && my shou ce is only for 4A book, don't have 4B. Heh. I'm damn lazy too la. I will never pass it anyway.

On second thoughts, I think I'll read the 4A shou ce for the sake of my Ns && my mom.

Last night, had a lovely chat with Qiaos on the phone for 105 minutes. Pert called, && now I know LH was his name. Nono, I'll leave it as initials. I don't like his name :X So Pert passed the phone to him && he talktalktalktalk non stop. =/ His life story is sad. He bloody hell happily took my number from Pert's phone & happily saved it as my cheena name. Ugh! He got home && accompanied Pert till she got home. Slept @ 230am. Damn dreadful & tired to attend school tday but well, it's just two & a half hours & I'll be free. Positivity, ay? Art paper was allright. All of us were so tired from the prep work. I'm so sick of Art, so fucking sick. The charcoal sticks dirtied my hands, nails & even arms. So frikkin' blackkkkkk.

After the paper, went to the Artroom with Sass & walked to the bus stop. While walking to the Artroom, there's this girll who was like "I ppppprovide you fullscap la." & Sass & I imitated her immediately "I ppppprovide you ay!" Haha together @ the same time! So coincidental. [: Met Yj @ the busstop. They two gonna have lunch while I'm taking 119 to Godma's place. Shyan came, Bestaye went home. Waited for 119, kept disturbing Sass & all. 119 came & I boarded the bus. [: && I realised something. I can be independent too. [:[:[:

Pert called on the way. I forgot that she said she'd call me @ 11am. Haha. She sound damn fucking funny! Got to Godma's house. Coco was barking like fuck, I swear. Fucking scary. I told Pert I'm damn scared & know what she said?

Her "Back back @ him!"
Me "Huh, he'll bark back!"
Her "Bark louder"
Me "I cannot win him"
Her "Of course la, your one damn niao niao kind."
-.-

My maid hid the dog before opening the door, hid him in the kitchen :D I can see him through the glass door & I was being a bitch by making faces @ him. Haha Auntie was laughing luh! The weather's frikkin' hot, really. Watched teevee && drank lemon barley. My used-to-be favvv drink. :D Nothing much on teevee though. Bummed around && left after Auntie's done with her work. [:

Took 119 back to Compass. This girl from Nativity Church Kindergarden was in the bus with her best friend Darren & their mothers was damnnnn cute. Haha her name is so unique! Yeo Yoke Mei Antonette. :D Her mom keep calling her "Netty!" Hahah, so cute la. The two of them were testing each other wordes for tmr's spelling. Damn cute. Her English is superb. I think it's even better than Zel's! =/

Got to Compass, had lunch with Auntie @ KFC! :D Heh. Godma gave us 50buckeroos. YAY! After lunch, got my magazines, a file for my art stuff & Chem guide book. LH says I'm turning into a bookworm 8) Which is good, I feel. Wanted to wait for mom but went home instead. Damn hot & tiring. 10 minutes after we got into the house, mom came back. I heard the keys so I ran to the door & scared her. Haha she jumped up la okay! Roflol. Showered, memorised the chinese letter format & used the com.

Mae's Ready & Waiting To Fall is stucked in my head.

Spinning around & around
Until my left was my right & up became down.
With just one look you knocked me off of my feet.
So unable to speak.
Oh how you made me weak.
Though it was a while ago, I still can recall.
That moment so ready, & waiting to fall.
Can you take me back in time
remembering when you captured my heart
Over and over again?

I'm doing avatars again [: But this time for different people. :D Haha many commented that it's nice. :D YAY! So in love with Christian Bautista's The Way You Look At Me. Fucking hell nice, I fuck swear. Amagawd! (Fucking bimbo I know)

"Can you not go, stay will you?"
I hope it doesn't mean anything to you 'cos I'm praying that it doesn't. I don't want it to mean anything either. I don't wanna hold hopes up too high. 'Cos I'm almost sure that my decision is certain. Ask me why am I leaving && I'm telling you, I really don't know. But I'm sure it's for the sake of my pain & memories that I can't take. Well, in other words, I'm running away from reality which I kinda hate it.

Qiaos & I talked on the phone last night & we caught up a little on our lives. I know, I KNOW! I told myself a zillion times before that I'm gonna be alone from now on which means I turn to no one, talk to no one about my heart. But fuck it, I did it again. So yes, we talked. Qiaos told me a lot about what she see from the Glynis she used to see & the Glynis she see right before her. She's one that watched me change gradually, watched me grow. I changed& I'm glad I did. I got stabbed too deep in the heart, I can't afford not to learn. I can't afford to let this heart bruise this bad again. She said I'm trying too hard to hide away from sadness that it's showing that I'm far from happy. I'm trying to make it not show but no, it's showing instead. I know, I'm forcing myself to laugh, to smile when I have to. But when I'm done faking it, I'm back to my emo self. She knows I've been keeping everything to myself, && she knows that I can't manage. (Look, I hate it when she knows me so well, really! ROAR) & I honestly do not know how am I gonna deal with this but well, until I find a solution to it, then I'll mend my ways. [:

Btw, I love you Qiaos. Though you can be such a bitch sometimes, though I reallyreally dying to tell you that I hate you for being the way you are, I still love you :D Hugs&kisses!

Tday I wanna thank God for putting all these people in my life. [: Especially for people whom taught me many precious life lessons. I love all of you & you have to know that. &&& I'm sorry for the long post, too much time to spare & I've got too much to say. Heh.



Pair of dirty old dancing shoes that fit.
<3.

2:35 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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